Nervousness

What is it about getting up in front of people that makes you so nervous? Is it the fact that your afraid you will mess up, look stupid, or get stage fright? All of those things run through my mind before I go in front of people. It blows my mind how celebrities and musicians and get up in front of thousands of people and have a great performance, but it's their job; that's what their use to. It's hard being shy especially knowing that I will have to go up in front of people. It's hard for me to even say hi to some guy that i like, let alone going up in front of your class to give a speech.

 I know, I know you don't have to give me a lecture. Everyone else has to do it. But they aren't as shy as me. When I watch them, they don't seem to care and seem comfortable. Either they are really good actors or they just don't have a issue. I wish I could do that. It's mostly the waiting to go up in front of people that makes me the most nervous. You have to watch everybody go before you and I literally sit there and count down one by one until it's my turn to go. I get shaky and start breathing heavily. I hate that. I hate that feeling more than anything. But once your up there its as if the whole world stops and before you know it your done. You did it and its such a relief.

I just had a piano recital today. On my way there I could tell I was starting to get nervous. Hate it. I was scheduled to perform last. Some people think that being last is good, well they thought wrong. I would sit there and just stare at my program counting down to when i was supposed to go. I kept saying to myself, it's not a big deal. That actually calmed me down until the one person before me was going. That's when I start playing with my hands and I can not keep still. When I walked  up to start playing I can honestly say that I messed up, but I ignored it. I can't say that I remember the whole performance that I was up there. I blank out and just let my fingers take off. When I was finished I came back to reality with a wonderful applause.

So what I'm trying to say is that if you get nervous and trust me everyone does, don't think about it. Your body knows what to do, even though your mind is gone. Trust yourself and in the end it will turn out fine.