Friends

It's hard to make friends when your shy. Your uncomfortable with yourself and your afraid of what people think about you. Fortunately for me I have a great group of friends. We are all comfortable enough with each other to put ourselves out there and make total fools of ourselves and knowing they won't care. It's nice being yourself and other people excepting you for you. But when your shy its hard to put your exact feelings out there. I myself sometimes can't tell my friends how I feel. Sometimes I think that they won't like me anymore and leave me or make fun of me. But that's stupid right? I've been friends with them for 4 years and we have never had a problem. Sure we have fights, but what kind of friends would you be if you didn't fight?

We all have our inside jokes. I sometimes start laughing for no reason and look like a total idiot, but who cares really? Then sometimes there are jokes that get old after awhile. There are some jokes that start eating at your brain and you think about it constantly. Should I tell them I don't like it or just ignore it? Ever since I was in elementary school I've always put out the act that I'm stupid or your typical "dumb blonde." Sure we all have blonde moments, but for some reason when I'm around my friends I can't help but act like a blonde. It's just who my friends know me as and frankly right now I don't like it. There's no doubt that I have embedded in my mind that my friends are smarter than me. They are all in AP classes, and some don't even have to study to get a A on a test. Where as there is me. I study and still get a D. Sometimes it makes no since, and it doesn't help anymore with making me think I'm a dumb blonde.

Right now being in my fourth year of high school its hard to change your image.People know you as a "type of person." The only people you can really be yourself around is your friends, but even I can't do that.