Why should I try?

Some days I keep hoping that eventually he will wake up and smell the roses. He would think to himself " Maybe I do actually like her as more than a friend". But it's never going to happen. So why do I keep trying?

For about 2 years I have been crushing on a guy at school. The only problem is he is one of my good friends, and I know he doesn't like me as more than that. According to my friends he has "high standards" and " will only date someone he can see himself with." That's when I realized that it won't happen. It never will. I can't help but keep looking at myself and saying there must be something wrong with me. Am I too tall, too fat, to dumb? Right now I'm even second guessing our friendship.

He is a user. He uses people and when he doesn't need them, he throws them to the side. He doesn't even make the effort to hang out with me. I have to suggest something to him or he won't even pick up the phone and text me to say hi. Right now I just feel like I'm here for 2 more months just to keep him company, and when it comes time to graduate its goodbye.

Why do people have to be this way? Don't they see what they have in front of them? Until this summer he won't realize what he had until its gone. Until it's all done and gone. So as of right now, as this moment I've now  decided that I will stop trying to get his attention, until he starts trying to get mine.

- For Rachel