Prom Season

Well love is in the air. It's the start of spring and prom season, or as I like to call it for shy girls like me, Single Awareness month. Prom is something that every girl looks forward to. It's a day where you get to feel like a princess and get to go to a dance with your prince charming, but for some of us, it's something that we dread.

Don't get me wrong, I love seeing people happy and I love going to dances, in fact I want to go to prom this year too. But I know deep down that it is another dance I won't get asked to. I can dream, hope and wonder if I will get asked, but in the end I won't.

My prom is going to be in the first week of May, and this is different depending on what school you go to. For us it's called " Junior Prom", but even when I was little I have always thought that you should experience prom your Senior year, and that's exactly what I'm going to do. Date or no date I'm going to go and just enjoy the night with my friends. Still it would be nice to be asked to at least one dance in all of my high school years, but I can't control that.

"Oh well why don't I just ask someone to prom?" Well good question. Been there, done that, got rejected, and now I'm dreading it.

The Hallway

When you think about it, the hallway is actually a really social place. Whether you are in school or in a store. It's a place to catch up with people, make small talk, or exchange books. But it also makes me wonder.

If you ever walk down the hallway by yourself and pass one other person on the opposite side, what do you do? Do you look at them, look straight forward, pretend to look at your fake text. I honestly don't know what do do myself. I have always wondered what to do. I don't know I just find  it to be completely awkward, especially if you don't know them.

Normally what I do is just look straight ahead. I know, I know, it makes me look stuck up. I would rather have that then be awkward. My friends always tell me that I look like I'm in my own little world and I don't not;ice anything around me. That's probably true. If their was a pack of malling tigers behind me, I probably wouldn't notice, although I don't know why tigers would be in school?

I don't think stores are that awkward when you walk down the aisles. It's pretty easy because you have shelves of things that can distract your attention, rather than in school when all you have is a wall and the opposite side.

So I have a question for you. Where do your eyes go when you wonder down the hallway?

The Look

There are many different types of "looks." There's the disappointment look, the puppy dog look and the keep a secret look. But the look I'm talking about is the look you get from guys, or as I like to call it the " I don't notice look."

My mom said to me the other day; " Oh, that guy just looked at you!" and I have no idea what she's talking about. What guy? There are guys here? For some reason I just don't notice when that happens, and if I do get ready for a whole lot of awkward. Just today I noticed that this guy in my class was looking at me, and in which according to the Girls Secret Handbook (which I never received) your supposed to make eye contact and smile. Well being me I looked and just moved my eyes in the opposite direction. I mean whats wrong with me?! Why didn't i smile or give some type of gesture? Well if you haven't guessed it already, I'm shy with that whole concept.

I honestly don't really keep that thought in my head when I see someone attractive. I would think, " He's not looking at me, their must be someone behind me," and move on. But this is reality and I guess I have to accept the fact that guys are looking at me. I mean lets face it, I'm sure every guy checks out a girl that crosses his path during the day.

What should I complain about really? I guess it's my own fault that I don't notice, or maybe its just that I haven't found someone that I can't take my eyes off of.